i've
had a bad reminder all day that troublewaits has
been
here one month and if she isn't back by
now
i'd have to call her out.
say:
i hate everyone,
no
more seal of approval on one more human being, a
decade later first person you fall with is a
nameless, invisible child.
makes
sense to me.
Something
is coming, i don't know what.
Oh
first, are there any on-line sensitive lili-killin
sins-of-omission
and couldn't care less
skanky
hos hanging around? Webaster, is there a
screening
process, i don't want them here,
make
them go, can you give them
a
virus, why can't i say their names if they're
just
cunts, clones, cunts, fakes, handlers,
please
explain, again, meanwhile
everyone
please think up some new ways
to
hurt unaccountable black as hell dark as
night
murderering backstabbing filth and
i'll
read them a special portent, come here, Shakespeare
to
win me soon to hell, my female evil
tempteth
my better angel from my side,
and
would corrupt my saint to be a devil,
wooing
his purity with her foul pride
...i
guess one angel in another's hell
yet
this shall i ne'er know, but live in doubt
til
my bad angel fire my good one out.
sonnet
144
something's
coming but i don't know what.
this
is it, she did it right, reader, go look, what
would
you think if you were me? can you
find
a clue as to what she
was
trying to get?
once
i woke up the scholar, good
morning
rich man one of your invited guests is now
loading
the 38 lead-head bullets, is this
all
part of the grand design? So i asked him if i could
(lili,
if you're reading this, i'm sorry, hon, will never again think such a thing,
ever, i've read a lot of books the last month, ok,) but i
told the scholar i will have you committed if
it
was the last thing i did, and he emailed me back a taunt,
webaster,
can we put it up,
i
have it you know, let me know and i'll send it to you,
basically, it says sure i spoze you could
have her committed, of course you'd need to know her name and location first.
is
there a hacker in the house?
come
to me.
another
elusive almost person, almost.
film-maker
teacher
leader
artist
satirist
boy toy
bard
activist
(note:
not fuckin zealot),
gone,
lost, abducted, stolen, deserted, severed, kidnapped, taken, estranged,
un-wanted, un-lamented almost 22,
almost
unbeatable.
angel-bait
something
to be spoken of quickly in the past tense and then just as quickly forgotten.
wonders
if she could almost really be the best person on
every
road
she
loses herself
myopia:
the need to connect
everyone
gets ten seconds to play their rusty lone
instrument
ten
seconds then
enough's enough
when
lili is the boston pops.
thank
you for the best 3 months i'll see again, ever,
teaching me how to love again, fuck again,
live and write again,
from
you and for you,
this bitterness will forever
explode
rocks.
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