One glimpses here the
naked,
intricate actuality of
the complexity
of experience that
those of us who do not deny
what we cannot explain
or even describe
are
struggling
to understand.
R.D. Laing, Self and
Others
this is odd:
Temporarily Doris Day Personality Disorder.
Webaster's recklessness entirely at fault,
huh.
It all started 2 weeks ago when he had this to
say about troublewaits world fixing template:
que sera sera
Next day i am in shopping mall, loading up
on pastels.
Whoever was on television that night became
the mom see, so i'm eight years old- yikes, 7 day teevee marathon, Doris Day
around the clock, whoever was on the television, see, she became my mom.
Dr. Phil would prolly call this one of
life's defining moments, he is a genius, retarded, no?
i call it the luckiest fuckin break of my
entire childhood, imagine the possibilities (Lassie comes to mind).
So i'm at Barton Creek Mall, lookin for
clamdiggers, laughin hysterically b/c i know
what's goin on, i'm 44, the patterns repeat,
same old quicksand potholes, uh-oh, stuck, afraid to give her up i guess, what if
Bette Davis takes her place, now who's unlaughing/uncrying stigma arf-arf, ok,
in dressing room, sit down. Am not comfortable with this, better steal
something, surely that will break the spell, scored a daisy-covered cotton hat,
unbelievably worse for wear now, remembering how fill-in-the-dad always used to
say don't lift don't steal twenty years of Psychorella and they put you on
Doris TV Day shift. Sorry Mr. Dylan but this is positively fourth street.
Real-deal ma catches on, i am now
hands-folded-in-little-girl-lap-dog, craving pastel pinafores and sensible
footwear, can i change my name to Doris Day Plan mom?
Doris Day?! That heroin addict, biggest slut
in Hollywood, rethink your role models, little miss walking abortion, christ,
out of 7 miscarriages you had to be the one that lived, twitch.
Webaster, please try to be more careful.
thanks,
trouble
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